It’s been a morbid few months, weeks, days… Still here I am trying to pick up the pieces of my life… It’s been a few months, but it seems like it’s been an eternity since I’ve been on my bike, ran my usual daily miles or had my weekly swim practice.
I honestly don’t even know if I am interested anymore…That’s probably the depression talking nonsense in my ear… These things use to be my go-to stress relievers, my daily aims, to be better than the day before…. and now… my shoes are hanging there gathering dust. My goggles have dried out, and I don’t even know where my biking helmet is anymore. I’ve been saying for the longest time, “I’m gonna get a new one next week”.
Next week just doesn’t seem to get here…yet!
I’ve noticed that I have like 8 drafted titles from my 2014 Roadtrip to write, upload and publish… I will likely get there… One Day… (those magic words)
In the meantime… patience is all I need… I’ll be back… not yet… but I will….
As you have noticed, I’ve been absent for a while. Partially, I’ve been unmotivated, lazy, and stubborn. The other part was me being on vacation. I was sleeping the past week on the beach in a tent, it’s something that my inlaws have been doing for the past 30+ years during easter week.
Now, this is completely true… Unfortunately, I did feel and look like a fool in a tutu yesterday at Zumba. It was my first time ever doing this “thing”. Dancing as exercise. It was good thing though that I was not there by lonesome myself, as if I would ever go do something that foolish on my own. I have no hand-eye coordination, or feel for rhythm, so Zumba is definitely not something for me. Kudos to those that are really into it, and it works for them. For me, I’ll stick the something more hardcore that needs no hand-eye coordination or choreographed movements…
And on that note…Waking up at the unusual time of six in the morning to go for my first run this year. I’ve been on a break from all activities since late November (excluding snow sports). Now, here lies the problem challenge, I am NOT a morning person.My alarm will snooze until nine in the morning, and I will still not get up. I will look like zombie if I do, for some odd reason, wake up earlier that seven. So yeah, about that run this morning… did not happen, because I was really kidding myself that going to bed at 1:00 am, works for me.
My goal for today is to get my ass to bed by 9, maybe 10, but no later than that if I seriously want to get started early.